Friday, January 9, 2009

Well, I Got My Logo.. .

So let the marketing myself begin! 

I have this big infatuation w. crest & after much alteration I was able to convert this crest into something of my own. And what are the odds that I'm a Leo in the zodiac horoscope & a dragon in Chinese horoscope. Now that I finally have my logo done, the business cards will be printed out next week, which I will post up here as well. This year I'm really going to be on my grind when it comes to my photography, my graphic design & my styling. So stay tuned.

Oh, so all the Vicoden is gone -- the pain is still there a little, but I got Ibuprofen 600mg to knock that out. Today will be my first day back outside since.. .  Tuesday, and where am I headed? To work.. . great

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Thoughts While Under The Influence.. .

.. . Of Vicoden, that is. 

Not my drug of choice -- but who am I to complain? It's been easing the pain from the wisdom tooth I got removed on Tuesday, which was awesome might I add. I didn't know what to expect since I never had any type of operation done on my mouth before except for a cleaning. Went in, Dr. Pompa shot me w. about 4 'local' needles that numbed me up & made me both 'legally high' & drowsy as fcuk.. . & well, the rest was history. So.. . once the numbness wore off & I got the feeling back in my lips & gums, that's when all this pain has kicked in. Now I'm supposed to take one pill every six hours as needed for pain -- but when I didn't feel the first pill doing any for like 20 mins, I popped another pill.. . only to feel nauseous & in more pain than ever. I laid down, knocked out for probably 30 minutes.. like a deep sleep, and now im up typing this feeling slightly.. high? But it's totally legal.. . since my dentist prescribed it. Anyway:
  • I'm starving. I've been starving since yesterday. I can only eat ".. soft foods such as soups, blenderized meals & gelatin desserts the first two days." First, fuck blenderized meals -- I attempted to put BBQ chicken, collard greens, yams & mac in the blender.. . it came out a disgusting vomit green & tasted nothing like any of those foods. So I've been living off of Chef Boyardee 'Spaghetti-Os' & McDonald's Sundaes -- & I'm fucking starving. A grown ass woman cannot survive off of those things for more than an hour. I swear tomorrow I'm going to eat oxtail, rice & peas & whatever.. 
  • I hate the side effects of this medication. I feel high, then I feel light headed.. then I feel like I have to vomit.. & I'm having hot flashes.. .
Okay, I feel really sick again. So I'm going to go lay down & hopefully feel better by the time the Real World Brooklyn comes off so I can share my commentary w. you guys about the show. 

Monday, January 5, 2009

This Is How Every Wednesday Is Supposed To Be.. .

So, Ava showed me this lovely flyer.. . 

For those of you that know me, you know that I loveeeeee Sex & The City -- whether it be the movie or any of the six season episodes. And you also know, I loveeeeee cocktails. Not an alcoholic, but I do enjoy cocktails, shots.. & just the whole bar/lounge scene -- I mean, who doesn't tho? So when she showed me this, you can only imagine how excited I was. Plus, they play episodes while you sit back & drink?! Sounds like a 'Sex & The City' heaven to me.  

Needless to say, this Wednesday.. . I'm there. So everyone grab your IDs, or fake IDs (like I will be doing, since I'm only a vibrant 20 years old) & meet me there. No admission charge -- you can't beat that, or the $3 shots or $6 Cosmos/Martinis. I don't mind being smashed by 4PM. I'm young & deserve to have fun -- shit, New York is my playground. 

So, whose w. me?! 

Dogs Don't Bark At Parked Cars.. .

.. . They only bark at cars that are moving -- you know, cars that are actually going places. 

As I've been reading away messages, blogs and just talking to people, it is obvious that everyone is on some kind of 'grind' or 'flow' for 2009 -- whether it be sticking to the fraudulent New Years Resolutions they've made, or just continuing to make their money.. everyone is trying to do something w. their lives for 2009. And don't get me wrong, I think that is absolutely wonderful. Obviously, everyone wants to be somebody in life. No one wants to hang around people that aren't doing anything w. their lives -- it's just not hot. But the thing I failed to differentiate in 2008 was the 'talkers' against those who actually are doing something w. their lives. And I'm going to admit for the longest.. fuck, for the majority of 2008 I could categorize myself as one of the 'talkers'. I always came up w. these nice ideas that I wanted to carry out -- I'd network w. a whole bunch of other 'talkers' & obviously all of my dreams, plans, goals never got carried out. It was all talk. And I was the main person telling other people, "Less talk, more action" but wasn't practicing what I was preaching. Call me what you want.. . but, the thing that makes me different from the 'talkers' is that I've actually realized that I spent a whole year being a fraud. If I could get a nickel for every time I was going to make a business plan, make a business card, buy a domain name, buy this.. buy that -- shit, I'd probably have enough nickels to start up one of my plans. 

In 2008, I tried to be big on this whole 'networking' scheme -- realizing all along, I was doing it all wrong. As Los & I sat today making a list of all these people I've 'networked' w. -- there was only two people remaining on that list that is actually doing something w. their lives that could potentially help me out -- Keith Major & Bill Hayward. And instead of going hard trying to better myself w. them -- I was trying to 'network' w. a bunch of nobodies, frauds & 'talkers'. I tried to seek popularity amongst a group of people that over time I realized were nothing but frauds, scammers (literally) & a bunch of people that swore they were doing stuff w. their lives --- had nothing to show. Obviously, everyone wants to be something in life. Realistically, most wont. 

Dreaming is free -- everyone can do it. Talk is cheap -- everyone can afford it. It's the sacrifice that most people aren't willing to take when it comes to making all that talking & dreaming come true. You have to lose to gain. It's a given. In 2008, I was content w. thinking that Myspace was the only 'social network' I needed to make my 'dreams' come thru. Obviously, I was wrong. The people that are really doing something w. their lives, don't have time to be sitting on the internet talking it up, sharing ideas & plans & goals.. . instead, they're actually out doing it. 

Dogs don't bark at parked cars, they only bark at cars that making moves. I refuse to sit around watching other people live out my dream, because I'm too lazy or too afraid to take chances. I always was strong believer that a new year didn't mean shit. Well, that's out the window. Despite all the bullshit I said in the past, 2009 is a new beginning for me. I've let go all the people negative in my life, fixed whatever friendships I felt will get better in years to come, let all the 'talkers' go & I'm just ready to start new. Less talk, more action -- & to think it only took me 5 days into the New Year to realize that. :) 

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Commercial of the Week.

I love commercials.. . 


& this one happens to be one of my favorites. Great concept. Great message. 

Saturday, January 3, 2009

I love this girl.

First 'Diva', now this.. . 


I swear I used to hate Beyonce back in the days, but as I'm getting older I'm beginning to appreciate her music more & more.  I absolutely love this video. 

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Hello, 2009.

It's 7:13PM, why am I still dizzy from last night?

I didn't have time to write an 'ode' to 08. I didn't feel like sitting here analyzing friendships I've encountered or experiences that occurred during '08. No need to reflect on the past for it has come and gone -- only time to focus on the future, and since I don't know what that's gonna bring I just have to sit back & await it.

Hello, 2009.